On trrack

well i've lost 2 pounds in 4 or 5 days and im prettty happy if i keep this up i will reach my goal and be skinny by summer. I already know what outfit im going to by as soon as i'm skinny! i'm really happy but i still have to work very hard because im still fat as hell! I gotta lose 48 more pounds then bam! i'm hot :)

Broken!!

my cat was thought to have broken his leg last nigt when he fell 20 feet but just messed up his hip. I was upset and having a panic attack and soo worried about my poor draco. I'm staying home today to nurse him back to health. i'm very tierd and didn't sleep well and im pretty sure my manic ness will end very soon

well day three :)

i've worked out for 40 minutes today and got my zumba so i should be set although i kinda fucked up but thats on something else............it's really rough for me to think about getting into the art high because i feel parinoid as ever and now i can't focus at all

I hate myself :D

well i've recently entered my week or so of manicness before i hit depression but hopefully this time wont be bad.... anyway i've decided im unhappy because im fat so i'm gonna lose 50 pounds even though my mother says that will be way to skinny what the fuck does she know? i'm going for it  I'm 5'10 so im never going to be able to weigh 120 like i want to but i don't care as long as i look skinny i'm gonna be happy (probably not) oh well skinny here i come.
I also decided if i do get as thin as i want im getting my nose pierced and my hair dyed as a reward and i might start eating like one small sweet thing a week or so IF i get skinny for now its no sweets and low carbs for me salads here i come.

Cannot think of a good title so this is it

I really wish my violin had all its strings. it would be so beautiful to play right now. Im already thinking of new songs... meh maybe i'll play it with only 3 strings for a while.

joey....

what can i say about him....I feel as if hes the only one to keep me stable

Stalker

I miss my old type of stalker who used to ask me to marry him and fallow me through out the class. he was sweet and loving, and oddly enough one of my closets friends, my new stalkers suck. They need to reach his awesomeness level!